I gave you joy
and happiness
the confidence that you could do
all you ever set out to do
That’s what you tell me now.
that you loved my smile
that I am so so beautiful
A golden gal
And yet you taught me
I was weak
I was crazy
my heart and head broken
until they became interwoven
with the things you said.
You left me with anxiety
with so little self worth that I feared myself in the mirror
an image in my mind that couldn’t be clearer
Of a beast, ugly and hateful.
Each mirror you hand me
reflects the image you tell me
And still I don’t know
my true reflection.